I feel like I'm at a crossroads in my life. I'm 29, single, have a career, completing my Master's, and not a clue about what I want to do with the rest of my life. And like most people out there, I often compare my life to that of others. What they have done, where they have been, how they live. When in reality, no of us have any clue as to what internal struggles that others face. For all we know, they could look at our lives with envy. However, it doesn't change the fact that I'm having my own internal struggle with what it is I want to do with my life. I thought by now, it would all be laid out. But the fact of the matter is that I'm just as lost as I was as a little girl.
However, it occurred to me the other day, that a day that the carnival is a perfect metaphor for live. It is filled with fun and adventure. Some of the rides are fast and fun. Others are slow and relaxing. Sometimes, they even scare you. It is always filled with food that is not good for you and things on a stick that you try just for fun.
The people at the carnival also play a very important role. It is always filled with such a variety and mixture. There are people that go with a group of friends just to have a good time. There are people that are there for the adventure. Families come to create memories that will last a lifetime. Sometimes people are afraid of the rides, and sometimes they try something they never thought they would. Others stick to the ones they know are safe.
I realized, that I'm going to enjoy the adventure of the carnival. I'm going to try all the rides and get one the ones that I think are going to scare me. After all, trying new things that can scare you are just part of the fun.
In addition, I recently compared my life to looking into Pandora's Box. I just never seem to know what's going to pop out. But someone reminded me, there's always hope at the bottom of the box. That's what I needed to hear today.
You never know where you're going to find hope. After all, I ran into it the middle of Times Square once.
I'm in the same boat (I'll be 30 in about 4 months -- eeks!) Sometimes I feel like a little girl playing grown-up. I am married and have a great career and a home, but it still doesn't feel real some days. The next step for us is a family -- and that's what terrifies me. I love the carnival metaphor!
ReplyDeleteI want to add that carnivals also have a lot of odd characters -- you'll also see that in life, too!
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ReplyDeleteI am about a month shy of my 31st birthday (GAH!!!!). I can tell you this. Last year around this time I was having some SERIOUS panic attacks. It's just a very daunting number for a woman. In the last year, I packed up my things and moved out of the apartment I shared with my boyfriend of six years and have made so many other adjustments in my life. Today I'm happy and confident. There's a self-assurance that comes at 30 that I have just never experienced before in my life.
Embrace this time with open arms. It's really not that bad and you'll find the unexpected is often the most appealing. I love the carnival metaphor, too!
Best of luck to you!
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